“I hate my life. Why must I be born this way. Can’t I be like the antibody that protects and guards her master? I want to be as loyal as them. I want to serve.” This was what I had been telling myself for that particular hour of my life.
Since small, I had been infecting, destroying and killing. I used to feel satisfied with my life. Kill, kill, and kill. Somehow I gained a satisfaction through this forbidden, hedious action. That was what I thought my life should be like. Daddy and mummy never said anything about not to kill. However, as time passed by, I started realizing that my life stands no meaning at all. Over the years, I’d seen death everywhere. I killed and I destoyed. But the antibodies fought with all their hearts, guarding and protecting their masters faithfully. In one particular time when I was in a new target, I started to feel a little lackness. A feeling that made me felt incomplete. What was it? Why did it makes me feel uncomfortable? I started questioning myself.
One day, as I was about to destroy one of the white cells again, the cell leader blocked her boldly with his sword. Weird. It was so weird. They were covering for each others’ back and were united though they had never even seen the owner of the body before. I on the other hand felt so confused, alone and isolated. Somewhere deep inside my heart, I hold a feeling of envy seeing how united, and happy they were. Unexpectedly, I broke into tears and dropped my sword. Seeing that, the leader came up to me and said:
“Have you been thinking for this few days about your life? Please stop listening to the evil voice. I understand how you feel and I wish to help. I know what has been lost in you life now.” Catching a spark from his speech, and feeling curious that he knew my state, I looked up and started listening to him.
In our conversation, he talked about life and how God had created all the beings on earth, even the tiny little living thing like he and I. Amazingly, I started entering a realm of satisfaction. My heart was slowly opening up to the word of God. Though I may be born as a virus, repenting was not an impossible thing. Since then, I repented and started joining the cells force. Instead of killing, I learn to protect and guard my master. It is really like a dream come true. Though I know the fact that I am still a virus, I am glad to know that I am loved and cared by God. Those who repent shall be filled and seek no more.
Since small, I had been infecting, destroying and killing. I used to feel satisfied with my life. Kill, kill, and kill. Somehow I gained a satisfaction through this forbidden, hedious action. That was what I thought my life should be like. Daddy and mummy never said anything about not to kill. However, as time passed by, I started realizing that my life stands no meaning at all. Over the years, I’d seen death everywhere. I killed and I destoyed. But the antibodies fought with all their hearts, guarding and protecting their masters faithfully. In one particular time when I was in a new target, I started to feel a little lackness. A feeling that made me felt incomplete. What was it? Why did it makes me feel uncomfortable? I started questioning myself.
One day, as I was about to destroy one of the white cells again, the cell leader blocked her boldly with his sword. Weird. It was so weird. They were covering for each others’ back and were united though they had never even seen the owner of the body before. I on the other hand felt so confused, alone and isolated. Somewhere deep inside my heart, I hold a feeling of envy seeing how united, and happy they were. Unexpectedly, I broke into tears and dropped my sword. Seeing that, the leader came up to me and said:
“Have you been thinking for this few days about your life? Please stop listening to the evil voice. I understand how you feel and I wish to help. I know what has been lost in you life now.” Catching a spark from his speech, and feeling curious that he knew my state, I looked up and started listening to him.
In our conversation, he talked about life and how God had created all the beings on earth, even the tiny little living thing like he and I. Amazingly, I started entering a realm of satisfaction. My heart was slowly opening up to the word of God. Though I may be born as a virus, repenting was not an impossible thing. Since then, I repented and started joining the cells force. Instead of killing, I learn to protect and guard my master. It is really like a dream come true. Though I know the fact that I am still a virus, I am glad to know that I am loved and cared by God. Those who repent shall be filled and seek no more.
-Tress-
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